My husband, Billy, wrote this poem after our first miscarriage with our son, Levi.
Miscarriage is HARD for the moms. But it's hard for the dad's too! I hope this blesses a hurting daddy today.
To Levi
by Billy Bourne
There's no direction for my emotion
I'm confused on what to feel...
A hurt without a name
But, a hurt I can't conceal.
You’ll never see a day begin
A life without a breath
Innocence that knows no sin
My wife's spirit without rest
I'll never recognize your mother
Behind the smiles of your eye
I know you only by your heartbeat
And by your name - Levi
Your eyes will never open
Your hands will never hold
Your lips will never kiss
Your story never told
You will never say you love me
I'll never see you wed
I'll never make you pancakes
Or carry you to bed
I'll never make you laugh
I'll never let you win
I'll never pick you up
I'll never tuck you in
I'll never hold you in my arms
I'll never hear you cry
I'm blind to see your face
There's no answer to the - why?
So I sat down with the lord
And asked him to help me see
Why he would let this happen
Here's what he said to me:
Like a son that I've created
Who never knew me while on earth
Eternal separation from me
Like your son without his birth
They will never know my love
Or who I created them to be
Lost forever and unknown
Their true identity a mystery
But, my grace is SO sufficient
Your broken heart I clearly see
But on the day you see my face
You'll see Levi standing next to me
I'll be your voice, I'll be your dad
And I'll love and pray for you
Until the day I see the Father
And the first day I see you
